wow!! is it just me or does 110 days seem like SO MUCH less than 130 days!!?? this 10-day countdown is really working out for me.
with 110 days left, that means we've been at this for a little over 150 days. and during that 150 days something very evil has been slowly creeping up on me: crybaby-ness. i know it's normal to become more emotional during pregnancy. and i suppose i probably was a little more emotional last time -- but nothing that affected my functionality. nothing like this time.
this time i am quite blessed with hormone-hysteria. drowning in it actually. michael says it's because i'm having a girl and since she's going to torture me with emotional drama for the rest of my life, it's nature's way of getting me used to it now. which seems like a really sexist theory, but since he insists that he's a feminist, i suppose i have to believe it.
i've gotten used to some aspects of crybaby-ness now: i.e., i bring a roll of toliet paper to the couch when i'm going to watch biggest loser cause crying A LOT makes me so stuffy i can't breathe unless i continually blow my nose. but some things still really surprise me: i.e. punching in the code on heidi's wireless garage and suddednly breaking out in totaly crying hysteria. mysterious.
i thought i had pretty much reached rock bottom when i started crying during american idol -- i mean, that blind guy Steve really got to me -- what a cool life-story! but during this 110 day period, i went even LOWER!! (i know! lower than american idol??)
we watch the movie "cars" at our house...maybe 8x a week? sometimes for only 10 minutes. sometimes the entire movie.
a few days ago i went into full-on, toilet-paper roll needed, crying because lightning mcqueen gave up his life dream of winning the piston cup to go back and push the older and recently wrecked "mr. the king" car over the finish line ahead of himself. bawling.
even a 2-year old knows that's nutso. levi kept staring at me from his couch cushion next to mine and eventually ended up patting my knee and sayng, "mommy done crying? mommy done crying?"
i don't know. i want to say that at 110 days we've reached the bottom of our crying barrel and it's just a waiting game now. but i'm nervous. cause what if our barrel is deeper than i think?
